Cause of Death
31 December 2008
.::My First Post::.
2day is the last day of 2008...
Alot of things had happen 2 me in the last 2 mths...
Alot of feelings and emotion i nv show it out...
i was suggested by frens 2 start blogging...
instead of keeping everything inside...
b4 i blow up or go crazy...
I broke up from a 2yr relationship nt long ago...
details i do nt like 2 share...
as it mayb bias as its from my view...
Sum1 was there for me...
Who understand my intentions for all the tings i did...
I jus tot we were gd frens...
Bt we went out...
jus the 2 of us...
My intention was jus 2 help her out on some errands...
Once all was done...
We went 2 catch a movie...
After tat we went hm respectively...
Soon we start to sms each other...
abt hw we felt abt the outing...
Long story short...
We mutually gt tgt...
Without sounding off 2 each other...
Everyting was so comfortable...
Everyting was so perfect...
There was was sumting else on top of luv...
Tat both of us could nt pin point...
Tat both of us nv felt b4 in life...
I felt tat my life was complete...
aft 1 month...
Nw things hv change...
Details again i do nt like to disclose...
i wish i could have put it into words hw much she meant 2 me...
i wish i could hv told her all my feelings rather den being calm infront of her...
Nw I can onli wait...
While waiting...
I should tink wat i did wrong...
When i'm mature...
she says i'm too calm...
When i'm playful...
she says i'm childish...
When i'm emo...
she says i'm too emo...
Guess the first thing i can do is "remove" my childish persona...
Sum frens say gd as they always find me too childish...
Sum frens say nt gd cos they find the mature me too serious...
i tink i will gv "removing" a try...
Cos doing nth...
Will onli change nth...
Anyway...
Happy New yr 2 all my frens out there...
& Dun wry abt me...
I know wat i'm doing...
i will wait for her...
Cos i know i cannt love another unless its her...
aft having the feeling wif her...
she's irreplaceable...Labels: 2008, Personal
~ I've Suffocated Myself At;
x 12/31/2008 09:55:00 PM
...Heart Attack
