Cause of Death
27 January 2009
~Sian!!! (a.k.a Bored!!! in proper English)~
as stated in the title...
is wat i'm feeling nw...
Y?
Firstly...
For chinese, the 1st day of CNY...
U will gather with relatives of ur paternal side...
On the 2nd day...
U will gather with relatives of ur maternal side...
Some will visit both side on the first day...
and visit frens on the 2nd...
For me...
From a single parent family...
*Frens will know y...
Lazy to elaborate...
Anyway I'm wif my mother...*
Sumhw the relatives come on the 1st day afternoon...
Thus today the 2nd day...
No one came...
I'm super damn bored...
Wanted to go out...
Gt nowhere i wan to go...
& cannt find any1 due to the festive season...
Even my sis went to visit the bf's family...
Secondly...
2molo hv to start work...
Even though i know nth much can be done...
As most of the ppl working in the yard are nt from sg...
Thus there will a lack of manpower...
From workers...
All the way up to maybe SGM... (Senior General Manager)
Anyway...
Spent my day watching a jap drama...
Titled: クロサギ/The Black Swindler/Kurosagi
*For detail of the show jus click the link*
Intro by frens...
Cos they know i like this kind of shows...
Shows that is abt using wits and brain...
e.g Deathnote, Kindaichi, Code Geass, Liar Game & etc...
Aft watching up to Ep6...
I feel tat...
The main character is sad...
The reason of y he is doing all those things...
The reason of y he is actually alone...
The reason of y he feels that there is nth important 2 him anymore...
Yet he is a gentle, warm and kind heart person inside...
Or is it becos i see abit of myself in him???
tat reminds me of the sadness inside me???
I dun know...
Alot of things happen to me recently...
Tat change me alot...
I jus feel tat...
I dun trust things, ppl & ect...
Like b4...
*Nt becos of the show...*
Mayb cos I dun wan to be hurt anymore...
Suddenly i remembered a saying in a show:
"Use ur kindness to overcome ur sadness and become stronger..."
Haha...
I think the show triggered the emotional side of me...
Bt i will finish watching it...
Its nt like me 2 leave thing done half way...
If i work on sumthing...
I will do 2 my best...
If nt i wun even pick it up...
Doing things halfheartedly...
Will nt only harm urself...
Bt also the ppl ard & the ppl who help pick up the pieces...
I think tis post is too long...
Better stop nw...
Happy CNY!!!Labels: CNY, Feelings, Personal, thinking, Yard
~ I've Suffocated Myself At;
x 1/27/2009 08:57:00 PM
...Heart Attack
