Cause of Death
09 August 2010
~THTH~
When i was young, i rmb reading a book.
It taught me the meaning of THTH.
Which means:
Too Hot Too Handle
Tat is happening to me.
I am really starting to dunno how to handle her when she is having a temper...
No matter wat i do or say it will always be wrong...
******
E.g.1
A situation happens,
Thus she suggest Method 1.
But i say i wanna to do Method 2.
Straight she will say i go against her, when the thing is done.
E.g.2
A situation happens,
Thus she suggest Method 1.
But i say i wanna to do Method 2.
Seeing her face black black...
I did Method 1 as she suggested...
Straight she will say i dun do what i said and end up using her method, when the thing is done.
******
and for today...
Send my mother to work abt 830am...
Meet my uncle after that since he had things to pass to her...
Since was morning...
Decided to take breakfast with him...
Uncle talk to her,
But she reply without any eye contact...
So i jus told him she is not feeling well...
Thus cutting short the chatting with him and walk to the car...
******
After breakfast with my uncle
I: Lets go hm, and let u sleep since ur still sick...
She: I dun wan to sleep!
I: Den where u wanna go?
She: Today national day, gt place to go meh?
I: ...
Once hm
She laid in bed, with blanket over her body and a small cloth over her head...
Seeing something amiss, i acted...
I: Wat's wrong?
She: Bored!
I: So u wanna go out? Where?
She: Today national day, gt place to go meh?
I: ...
******
I was at my wits end...
Not knowing wat to do...
Pondering a few hrs beside her...
While she sleeps...
I jus snap...
Showered and went out...
Leaving a note to her...
"I go out,
If u wan u wait,
If not go hm."
A few hrs ltr..
She called...
******
She: where are u?
I: Bugis Junction...
She: Y there? With who?
I: Walking ard... Alone...
She: Y u nv bring me?
I: U told me nowhere to go cos national day wat...
She: I was asking u!
& shortly hp went dead due to no batt...
******
After that went back hm,
bring her out for dinner....
It became a Q&A session...
Like "wat to eat?", "drinks?", "cant finish a nt?", "feeling better?" and etc...
Where i ask, she answer...
not more den 5 words...
And she rather look at a fly on the floor den have eye contact with me...
Even when i send her hm at the stairs on her floor...
Avoided eye contact again...
Any1...
Pls gv me ideas...
I really dunno wat to do...Labels: 2010, Feelings, Kaylen, Personal, Pissed, thinking, Tired
~ I've Suffocated Myself At;
x 8/09/2010 10:49:00 PM
...Heart Attack
