09 August 2010
~THTH~ Labels: 2010, Feelings, Kaylen, Personal, Pissed, thinking, Tired
When i was young, i rmb reading a book.
It taught me the meaning of THTH.
Which means:
Too Hot Too Handle
Tat is happening to me.
I am really starting to dunno how to handle her when she is having a temper...
No matter wat i do or say it will always be wrong...
******
E.g.1
A situation happens,
Thus she suggest Method 1.
But i say i wanna to do Method 2.
Straight she will say i go against her, when the thing is done.
E.g.2
A situation happens,
Thus she suggest Method 1.
But i say i wanna to do Method 2.
Seeing her face black black...
I did Method 1 as she suggested...
Straight she will say i dun do what i said and end up using her method, when the thing is done.
******
and for today...
Send my mother to work abt 830am...
Meet my uncle after that since he had things to pass to her...
Since was morning...
Decided to take breakfast with him...
Uncle talk to her,
But she reply without any eye contact...
So i jus told him she is not feeling well...
Thus cutting short the chatting with him and walk to the car...
******
After breakfast with my uncle
I: Lets go hm, and let u sleep since ur still sick...
She: I dun wan to sleep!
I: Den where u wanna go?
She: Today national day, gt place to go meh?
I: ...
Once hm
She laid in bed, with blanket over her body and a small cloth over her head...
Seeing something amiss, i acted...
I: Wat's wrong?
She: Bored!
I: So u wanna go out? Where?
She: Today national day, gt place to go meh?
I: ...
******
I was at my wits end...
Not knowing wat to do...
Pondering a few hrs beside her...
While she sleeps...
I jus snap...
Showered and went out...
Leaving a note to her...
"I go out,
If u wan u wait,
If not go hm."
A few hrs ltr..
She called...
******
She: where are u?
I: Bugis Junction...
She: Y there? With who?
I: Walking ard... Alone...
She: Y u nv bring me?
I: U told me nowhere to go cos national day wat...
She: I was asking u!
& shortly hp went dead due to no batt...
******
After that went back hm,
bring her out for dinner....
It became a Q&A session...
Like "wat to eat?", "drinks?", "cant finish a nt?", "feeling better?" and etc...
Where i ask, she answer...
not more den 5 words...
And she rather look at a fly on the floor den have eye contact with me...
Even when i send her hm at the stairs on her floor...
Avoided eye contact again...
Any1...
Pls gv me ideas...
I really dunno wat to do...
~ I've Suffocated Myself At;
x 8/09/2010 10:49:00 PM
23 June 2010
~No!!!~
Jus before leaving for work...
Checked NTU mail...
They gonna increase fees...
Argh...
Damn...
Now going to work...
~ I've Suffocated Myself At;
x 6/23/2010 06:25:00 AM
07 January 2010
~Car Accident~ Labels: 2010, Car, Personal, Pissed
Location:
AYE toward Tuas B4 Jurong Town Hall Rd Exit
Motive:
Looking for car / owner of SGP515P who hit my car,
causing me to hit the car in front of me,
& sped off...
Pls take a photo of his car and contact me ASAP
~ I've Suffocated Myself At;
x 1/07/2010 12:23:00 PM
10 November 2009
~Going Psychotic~ Labels: Degree, Family, Pissed, Tired, Yard
Too much things:
1) Reservist - 17th ~ 20th Nov
2) Sis wedding - 22nd Noc
3) Exam coming - 25th Nov, 4th Dec
4) Reservist - 08th ~ 11th Dec
On top of that, stupid project in yard...
Especially the engineer in charge of the project...
Yes! He was the one who mess it up!!!
Freaking piss by his "i dunno?", "i forget", "nobody inform me" and etc...
Most irritating is his childish giggle...
Freaking hell, already 30+ still act like a kid...
Need to tell you everything meh?!
Think i your nanny arh?!
Always blame the whole wide world except himself:
E.g.1
Found errors in the forms he type...
Highlight to him...
Next moment he will say "i type what they write"...
Y dun he jus admit he nv check?
E.g.2
Ask him for some documents...
He say dun hv...
Question him back...
The reply i got is "they nv give me"...
What the hell!!!
They nv give or u nv ask or better still u misplace it?
Must bring and lay on your lap arh?
Everything also look for me...
Now i answer the same way he does
E.g.1
Ppl ask him some questions...
He claims that item he has no idea...
Straight away tell ppl to ask me...
I answer in front of him...
"u dunno, u expect me know?"
"i also dunno"
E.g.2
Ppl ask him some documents...
He claims that he dun hv...
Straight away tell ppl to get from me...
I answer in front of him...
"u dun hv, u expect me to hv?"
"u dun hv, i also dun hv"
Dun care...
I jus need to hold it there till next week...
reservist, sis wed plus exam...
Gonna MIA from company for abt 1.5weeks...
LET HIM DIE!!!
~ I've Suffocated Myself At;
x 11/10/2009 11:18:00 PM
29 October 2009
~karoshi~ Labels: Degree, Kaylen, Pissed, Tired, Yard
Long Time nv blog due to work and studies...
Really feel like killing my manager...
Everything also ask me handle...
Might as well i be manager...
Anyway...
Gt a little worried due to a article online abt overworking...
"karoshi"
Scary but true...
Luckily i still gt 老婆 to hold me in my grounds and mentally support me...
~ I've Suffocated Myself At;
x 10/29/2009 09:16:00 PM
06 October 2009
~Frustrated~
Frustrated over work...
Stupid manager...
Everything also look for me...
Meeting also ask me to answer...
WTH...
Den ur title of Senior Section Manager for what...
*Some more jus recently promoted*
KNS....
Further more the person who created all this shit...
Is doing another project...
Come on man...
Wat the managers thinking...
Brewing another pot of shit....
BANKAI!!!!!!
~ I've Suffocated Myself At;
x 10/06/2009 11:13:00 PM
02 September 2009
~The world is fair, cos every1 is treated unfair~
Hw come someone who:
-takes more MC den me...
-takes more leave den me...
-work longer den me but know nothing...
-creates shit and i clear it...
-no nd to work on sundays, while i work and clear his shit...
-push all responsibility when things happen...
-every1 complains abt him but nth happens to him...
-answer every question with "i dun know" and diverts it to me...
still gets:
-bonus almost the same as me...
-increment almost the same as me...
Dun know wat the management is doing...
Its all BULLSHIT!!!
~ I've Suffocated Myself At;
x 9/02/2009 11:01:00 PM
29 June 2009
~Major OT! Crapy Shit Work Load!~
I was clearing the piping scope of a project...
Almost most of the major issues are settled...
Jus when i tot i could relax...
Was told that structural scope documentation is a mess...
Was told to settle in 3 weeks...
Wah Kao...
2yrs of "rubbish" documents...
Hw to settle in 3 weeks?
Further more "THE LEGENDARY UNCLE" does not listern to my instructions...
Thus now a senior engineer come into picture...
At least "THE LEGENDARY UNCLE" give watever info/data we ask from him...
The table of documents lay on the table for checking...
4 Assistant Engineers, 1 Senior Engineer, a few workers and the section manager...
Oh ya!
Still gt the ever so helpful "THE LEGENDARY UNCLE"...
After a while...
All gt pissed off...
Cos everyone was checking the files and referring back to 2 common files...
*Summary on each file was base on the 2 common files...*
Gt a few worker to copies everything...
E.g
If the document mentions 2 items, they will make 2 copies...
If the document mentions 5 items, they will make 5 copies...
Copies are filed accordingly...
Item 1s in file 1...
Items 2 in file 2...
Once all are filed...
They were instructed to sort base on the description...
Of course starting from the easy one...
*They are worker. Dun expect them to be able to process large "size" information at 1 go*
What the engineers do?
Check thru the next higher level document...
Called "Traceability Matrix"...
Where its a summary of the relevant documents and where to find...
Thus the worker sort the basic documents...
While we check all the "Traceability Matrix" against drawings, sketches, item detail, date, type of inspection, NDT and etc...
Gonna OT alot!!!
And while ppl check like crazy...
The ever so helpful "THE LEGENDARY UNCLE" was nagging away...
Saying wat we are doing is wrong...
Not the company standard, not ISO standard and etc...
WTH!
If u were correct...
Y are we doing all this in the first place by the Dept managers instructions...
Kao...
As if we like to dirty our hands...
Sometime i really feel like kicking him in the face...
Which i always picture it in my face...
As below...
~ I've Suffocated Myself At;
x 6/29/2009 12:17:00 AM
13 June 2009
~Parking Ticket Offence~
Stupid case tat spoilt my day...
Gt a packing ticket offence parking at my hm downstairs carpark.
I had apply my season parking below my hse & nearby open carparks.
Called up HDB
Found out that my season parking location was assigned at a nearby multistory carpark.
WTH
Totally not wat i applied.
Somemore multistory is a extra 10 bucks compared to open space
File up a appeal to HDB.
1) cancel the stupid summon
2) transfer my parking location.
Nw wait for their reply...
KNS...
~ I've Suffocated Myself At;
x 6/13/2009 11:58:00 PM
21 April 2009
~Car accident~ Labels: Driving, Family, Frens, Pissed
Gt into a small accident on sunday at redhill.
Onboard the car was me, my mother, my 2nd aunt and her 2 sons...
as the image above...
1)i have the right of way...
2)the stupid van nv stop at the stop line..,
3)it was a two lane road...
when turning left the van "cut" into the right lane (my lane)
the freaking driver blame me for banging him...
WTH...
Everyone in the car start arguing with him...
Den he change his story say he wanna answer to his boss...
WTH...
Stop the argument and exchange particulars...
He is a KNS driver...
His van's so call damage...
My fren's car damage...
When my fren came back from his holiday...
Told him abt it...
He jus say forgt abt it...
since its onli a small scratch...
Nw we shall see if tat guy will report or nt...
If he does...
I'm so gonna "fire" him...
Using my "shipyard blood" in me...
~ I've Suffocated Myself At;
x 4/21/2009 11:12:00 PM
26 February 2009
~Stress Up!!!~ Labels: Feelings, Pissed, Tired, Yard
Super stress up at work...
Due to high expectation of everyone...
Hv been arguing alot...
Cos Owner requesting for redundant requirements...
Come on man...
The construction manager want to fin the project fast...
You the QA/QC manager keep asking for redundant requirements...
Funny rite...
A team that thinks in different direction...
The yard did the minimum requirements...
I'm asking wavier off the redundant...
Not totally do nthing...
Worse scenario:
Meeting started with 5 Owners...
The engineer in charge of the project...
My section manager...
plus me...
I 1 person argue with 4 Owners...
For abt 15~30 mins...
The engineer in-charge...
my section manager...
plus 1 owner who was more to my side jus keep quiet...
When the argument fired up to a pt...
That they know i will not give into their demands...
1 of them turn to my manager and ask...
"Mr. XYZ, what do you have to say?"
My beloved section manager leaned forward,
look at me,
and open his mouth:
"What is it abt?"
Wah lao...
It look damn bad lor...
Gv a damn bad impression to them abt my dept...
Anyway i dun wanna comment further...
Playing by the ear nw...
See hw this argument will end up...
Anyway gt a new attached on my bag...
Tats the reaction i hv been giving for the past few days...
So u guys k imagine hw many "stunning" things happen tis few days in work...
Dun really wish to comment cos 2 many...
1 sentence which i learn in army & apply in life...
*Assumption is the mother of all f*** ups*
Nv ever assume...
Getting damn tired out *mentally* of work...
Really running a 1 man show...
Zzzz...
~ I've Suffocated Myself At;
x 2/26/2009 11:52:00 PM
25 February 2009
~Sianzzz!!!~ Labels: Enjoy, Pissed, Tired, Yard
a lot of shit at work...
Looks like gonna have long OT again...
Plus weekend gonna burn liao...
Hai...
Anyway at least i gt to eat sumthing i like a ytd...
Choco plus ice cream...
I declare tat i hv a sweet tooth...
Plus i saw rainbow 2day at jurong pt...
looks likt my days are nt really tat bad & boring...
LOL...
Hope i can clear the "shit load" at work...
~ I've Suffocated Myself At;
x 2/25/2009 10:30:00 PM
07 February 2009
~Pissed Off!!!~
Damn ANGRY!!!
I hv 2 work tis sunday again...
Becos of a upcoming audit on tues...
I go back clear the "shit"...
While the guy who creates the "shit"...
Still hv the cheek to say...
"I'm nt coming back 2molo..."
WTF!!!
All tis will nt happen...
If he had listen 2 all my advice abt 1yr ago...
Freak man...
All the things nw...
Are "snowballed" from 1yr ago...
And he keep on commenting...
"Nw gt u ma..."
WTF!!!
U expect to clear ur 1 and a 1/2 yr shit in days arh!!!
Or u think i'm "GOD"...
I jus touch the ship...
And everything will be ok and the ship can sail?
When will this guy wake up his F***ing brain???
Nw a new project is assign 2 him...
And he claims he is busy...
Come on la...
A newly started project...
Has nthing much in the first 3 mths lor...
Think i stupid or wat?
Tis my 3rd project already la...
Nw everyone is complaint nt 2 gv him and gv me the new project...
Sometimes after office hrs...
I will sms him abt certain documents and stuff...
*Sometimes requested by my managers*
Always fails to meet his promised date and time...
Plus still can reply me crap...
Come on la...
I'm here asking serious stuff...
And ur there crapping...
Go toilet if u want to...
He is freaking 31yrs old tis yr lei...
Sometimes i really feel he is nt fit 2 b a "Engineer"...
It was even commented by some of the workers / inspectors...
I dun care if he see tis...
Fren is fren...
Job is job....
Nv take a nice guy for granted...
It will be damn ugly if i really blow up...
I nw dare him to try me...
I will make sure he regrets it...
Anyway...
A group of us(engineers) hv agreed on one thing...
All of us will resign...
If his bonus/increment is higher then any of us tis yr...
~ I've Suffocated Myself At;
x 2/07/2009 11:44:00 PM
22 January 2009
~Madness!!!~ Labels: CNY, Frens, KTV, Movie, Music, Pissed, Tired, Yard
ARGH!!!
The madness of clearing the project....
Is making me easily agitated...
So much SHIT to clear...
Cause by some ppl...
Shall nt comment too much...
Today went onboard to check 1 item...
1 freaking expansion joint...
That the owner's dun even know the location...
Come on la...
Its ur ship...
Ur design...
The yard jus install accordingly...
Crap...
Y do tis ppl gt so high pay...
when they know nuts...
Climb and wriggle thru the pipes...
Like in the army dayz...
Where we bash thru forest...
Jus to find 1 freaking expansion joint...
tat look like...
Purposely ask my inspector to be in the photo...
So tat 2 let the owners know tat...
WE DO GO ONBOARD...
and not always in the office like them...
Looking fwd to 2molo...
Cos gonna catch movies with frens...
Looking fwd to sat due to possible basketball game...
Plus early reunion dinner...
Looking fwd to CNY to rest....
Looking fwd to 31st due to KTV....
I can onli say...
加油！加油！加油！
2 myself...
BTW found out tat the song does not loop...
Mayb i should put a very long song...
haha...
~ I've Suffocated Myself At;
x 1/22/2009 11:42:00 PM
20 January 2009
~Sian 1/2~ Labels: Feelings, Frens, Gundam, KTV, Music, Pissed, Yard
Long time didn't blog...
Due to alot of things to settle...
Nw...
Mixed feelings...
1.
My gundam model has 1 part broken...
Due to the joints were too tight...
When to Tiong Baru Plaza with Jazz™
& bought "Cement" for models
Status: Repair in progress... Sian 1/2...
2.
Project in a deep mess...
The more i dig...
The more "shit" i uncover...
A lot of pieces i nd 2 pick up...
Dunno where 2 start...
Status: Wan to kill the engineer tat was in charged...
Nw everyone is looking at me to clear the "shit"
Like i'm some god or dunno wat...
Stressed abt hw to meet up to their expectations...
Status: I'm onli human... I will do wat i can...
I was told to go back during CNY if required...
WTH...
I'm helpping out lei...
I'm nt the 1 who created tis "shit" lor...
I can come back...
But make sure tat guy also come...
Status: Feeling dame PISSED!!!
Luckily jus nw had dinner with a group of frens...
Was initiated by Kenny...
Nw feel more de-stress...
Thanks guys...
Although it was a coincidence...
*Tot i was gonna explode...*
Status: A bit not so stressed up...
Hai...
Almost out of ideas to clear the "shit"
But must clear it...
To find sumting i can work on...
Argh...
Status: Mentally tired...
CNY near the corner...
Still have nt gt time to go for a hair cut...
Hai...
Hope 2molo can...
Who else wanna go KTV?
BTW...
My Fav show - 惡魔在身邊
My Fav artist - 楊丞琳
My Fav song - 曖昧
Add it all up u get?
See below...
Enjoy...
~ I've Suffocated Myself At;
x 1/20/2009 11:37:00 PM
18 January 2009
~Enjoyed 17th nite, Demoralized 18th~ Labels: CNY, Frens, Gundam, KTV, Pissed, SJAB
Ytd had a drinking session with Kenny & YS...
Jus a few drinks...
*YS & Kenny in the background discussing abt PSP game*
Some finger food...
A lot of catching up and jokes...
Really enjoyed the session...
Hinted Kenny & YS to go KTV on 31st...
Bt no proper answer from them...
Cost tat session: Under $100
LOL...
A personal group joke tat onli the 3 of us know...
Had a very gd sleep...
Bt with a very lousy dream with it...
I usually hate to dream cos...
It will either be very ridiculous or...
It will happen in the future...
Most of the time its not a "Pretty" dream...
Anyway...
This morning gt 2 sad news...
1.
The training for the cadets where cancel by the TIC...
Commented tat they onli wan weekend training to commence aft CNY...
Hai...
There is nt much time to train them...
Hv 2 really access them 1 day...
To see if their are really ready for competition...
Or should they postpone to next yr?
2.
Basketball game canceled...
Due to poor respond...
Hai... Sian...
I was so looking forward to the 18th...
Thus i will be staying hm to do up my Gundam...
Mayb some anime or movie catching up...
Unless some impromptu things happen again..
LOL...
Ltr nd to go out to pick up some CNY stuffs...
Ard late afternoon or early evening...
Mayb will go "Jalan Jalan" a bit...
~ I've Suffocated Myself At;
x 1/18/2009 09:15:00 AM
01 January 2009
.::No more keeping to myself::.
like i said...
tis blog is to make sure i dun keep tings to myself anymore...
nw i,m very pissed off...
Someone told me i destroyed her life in the 1 mth...
told me to get out of her life...
are u sure?
i reali destroyed her???
or i destroyed wat u want her to be???
all along i accepted who & wat she was...
nv changing her...
nvm...
i shall nt expose 2 much...
who are u to ask me to gt out of her life...
i hv control over my own life...
and u hv no rite over her life too...
u are still a respectable fren to me...
dun make mw lose my respect for u...
enough said...
i hv "vented" out...
feel better le...
~ I've Suffocated Myself At;
x 1/01/2009 01:31:00 PM
